I am in my seventh week of positive change, dear ones. Week seven(!) of transformation. I feel so abundantly blessed. Gaps in my values that I’ve wanted gone for YEARS are gone. I’m enormously grateful to the Universe for every single day of support. I could not have come this far without the magical forcefield of infinite possibilities backing me up, every step of the way. Little by little I’ve felt stronger, my belief BIGGER. When I’m plugged into that forcefield of Divine support, believing that there’s enough God in me to do anything, I feel peace and abundance vibrating from my head to my toes.
All that said, I still have bad days. Nerve racking days. Impatient, frustrating, really hard to fight the negative thought cycle, days. Some days my fear fights hard to get the best of me, and I barely keep my head above water. Thus, I’m seeing a lesson emerge from this year of transformation that I didn’t expect.
True success, true victory, true OVERCOMING, stems from making it through the hard days. From refusing to check-out in them. From saying to yourself, “I can feel this discomfort. I can live in this body with all these un-fun feelings. I can inhabit the uncomfortableness that is this day. It won’t last. There will be better days. In the mean time I will dwell in this space of hardness, do my BEST to be the highest version of myself, and FORGIVE MYSELF when I fall short.”
Because no matter how much transformation occurs in your life, you cannot stop the sucky from happening. Sometimes the sucky is all in our head and sometimes it occurs as external events outside of ourselves. Either way, the clouds in life are what make the sunshine so fabulous.
So don’t make the mistake of thinking that when you finally reach all your goals, or achieve the life of your dreams, that you won’t have cloudy, sucky days, because you will. And you’ll have them on the way to the life of your dreams, so you might as well make peace with them now because they are part of the process. Don’t fear them, inhabit them. Consciously staying present while in the SUCK, is a huge hurdle on your journey. The Universe is saying, “Can you handle it?” Resolve to say yes, because it is in these hard periods that we are being conditioned to handle ANYTHING. Transformation isn’t about always flying above the clouds. It’s the hero’s journey. Responding to the call —> committing to the journey —> facing the dragons (hard stuff) —> slaying the dragons (cuts and bruises? Oh yeah) —> and feeling the EXUBERANCE of VICTORY —> over and over again. Rinse, wash, repeat.
So wake up each day prepared to face whatever comes. BELIEVE for the best. Focus on the positive and practice gratitude to attract more of what you love/want in your life. BUT have your sword and umbrella ready to face the sucky. DO NOT ABORT your transformation mission because of the walls you hit along the way. Stay present. You can survive whatever is happening in any given moment. You can inhabit the hard feelings, they will not kill you (affirmation: my feelings have no ceilings). Just keep believing and have compassion for yourself. The hero’s journey is not for pansies. This transformation shit, magical though it may be, is HARD.
Taking the process day to day also helps in not getting overwhelmed along the way. The dreams I want to manifest this year, are no walk in the park. When I look at the year as a whole, I get freaked out like, “Whhaaattt?! I’m going to do ALL that?!?!” <— If I stay plugged into that way of thinking, I jump on the hamster wheel of my neurosis and start trying to conquer the whole year RIGHT NOW. I’m panting and sweating and “AAAHHH! I GOTTA THIS and I GOTTA THAT and AAARRRGHHH!!!!” Whoa. Stop. Slow down. I’m only responsible for this day. This one. And if what my mom said was true,”You can eat an elephant one bite at a time,” (#weirdfamilysayings) then I’m sure this applies to dragons too 😉 So here’s to taking the journey one day at a time and staying committed during the good and bad. The magic of transformation is in the process after all 🙂